“Convincing yourself that you’re happy is the one thing people have always told me to do. But one thing that I have learned the passed year is to be honest with yourself and to be honest with the people around you. It’s like I’ve been through hell and back with different relationships, but I always seemed to convince myself that I was actually happy and loved by my significant other. It seems like every day I’m caught thinking the same thing, why did I ever think I was different and why did I ever think you were different also. I don’t think I’ve ever come face-to-face with my emotions and if I have it’s been little by little and not much thought put into it and this is where I do. I’m putting it all on paper in which some people will read, some will skim through and some will even relate. It’s like we’re all put into one situation where it seems like constant hell and you put so much time and effort trying to let go and to get over it but nothing seems to work. You try to convince yourself that maybe this one person will be different from previous relationships and they will treat you the way you treat them or the way that you want to be treated. It’s like the first month or so knowing them or being with them that you believe that this person might be the one to completely sweep you off your feet. But you’re wrong. They tell you the all the right things and things that you would like to hear but never the honest truth. Sometimes it’s nice, but in the end you won’t thank them for telling you things you would like to hear, you’ll thank them for being honest. You’re falling in love with someone’s lies and not someone’s true self. I can’t explain how much the truth would have helped me move on from the situation I’m in, it’s been five long months and it still lingers through my head and keeps me up half the night in tears while she’s cuddled up next to the girl she says “I love you” to every night. She sleeps perfectly fine. It’s like she has the world in her hands but doesn’t comprehend how her lies and her actions physically and mentally hurt a person and can keep hurting a person. It has caused so much damage that we believe that we will never find anyone who will actually treat us properly and we assume that how we have been treated is how we deserve to always be treated. We don’t allow ourselves to open up to anyone and we push away the people who might in the end be that right person and the person to pick up our pieces, not intentionally, but because she actually does truly love you and truly does care about you. And the worst thing is we can’t even get proper closure. We want to keep that person in our lives because in the end we’re still in love with them, then we push them away because we remember all the bad things they’ve done to you. We try and convince ourselves that maybe they did truly love you, or they did truly care about you and it’s like an ongoing battle with yourself. But with all the damage that has been done to you, the one thing you have to remember is that things will get better. There will be scents in the air, a song that comes on the radio, a piece of clothing that you put on or even the lonely night that will remind you of them. But, it does take time and you just also have to remember that people who mistreat you, will never ever, ever understand how much they hurt you because they are self-consumed, you can’t hate them because that’s who they are and they they won’t change in which you cannot blame them for, you just have to find a way to become indifferent. But always remember that someone WILL come along and WILL sweep you off your feet and WILL actually truly love you to pieces. They will give you the world, but it just takes time.”—my thoughts on breakups (via skaterparadise)
If they don’t reply to your texts — they’re not interested in you.
If they don’t call you — they’re not interested in you.
If they forget your birthday — they’re not interested in you.
If they’re hung up on their ex — they’re not interested in you.
If they’re obsessed with being single — they’re not interested in you.
If they don’t want to meet your friends — they’re not interested in you.
If they don’t want you to meet their friends — they’re not interested in you.
If they don’t ask questions about your life — they’re not interested in you.
If they don’t tell you things about their life — they’re not interested in you.
If they only speak to you when they want to have sex with you — they’re not interested in you.
If they only have sex with you when they’re drunk — they’re not interested in you.
If they say “should we just keep this between us?’ after you have sex with them — they’re not interested in you.
If they don’t have sex with you — they’re not interested in you.
If they can always find a psychobabble rationale about who “I am” or “you are” or “we are” as reason why you can’t be together — they’re not interested in you.
If they have said for more than six months that they would like to be with you “BUT” — they’re not interested in you.
And if you still need convincing — think of it this way. Think of what the real day-to-day of life is taken up by. Life is birthday parties at terrible pubs. Life is losing your credit card and the annual Melbourne Cup sweepstake in the office. Life is hen’s nights, bucks’ nights, sitting on the phone for three hours to get U2 tickets and not getting them, the apartment upstairs flooding your house, interval training, calorie counting, cancer scares, illegal mini cabs, Secret Santa, rail replacement buses and Dido albums. Dogs die, cars crash, bin liners break, contracts end, curtain rails collapse, trains get delayed, football teams lose. Divorce happens and so do earthquakes and so does An Audience With Michael Bublé. Landlords put rent up, phones get stolen and the supermarket often completely runs out of hummus.
Now, taking all of the above into account — you look me dead in the eye and tell me the truth. Do you really have enough spare energy to pursue someone who isn’t interested in you? Do you really want to waste any more time on top of all of that? No. Me neither. So give it up, my friend. It’s a loser’s game. Delete their number. Don’t go on any more dates with them. Stop lurking their Facebook page. Feels good, doesn’t it?
“It’s amazing how at one point in our lives we become extremely close with someone and then they become a complete stranger. You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look. This person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past is now walking right past you, seeing right through you.”—Unknown (via ohteenscanrelate)